This is a booklet by Yogananda of Self Realization Fellowship (SRF).
It offers a good perspective, and I recommend it highly. I know that I need the type of encouragement and gentle scolding such as in this booklet to keep me on track on my meditation. It is always rather a surprise at first, then rather hard to admit later on as to how this is needed. OK, I'll only speak for myself, but according to the booklet, it is a common problem. Still strange to me, even though I experience it.
I think the main message is that one has to be sincere for a relationship with God, not just wanting fringe benefits, and must stick to it to prove that one is sincere.
Today, I wondered if a reason for diffculty in sticking with it so to speak is due to fear of the unknown or that one will miss out on something in the here and now. I am not saying this very well, but it is hard to put into words. It is sort of like wondering about what comes after finding Nirvana - the then what question? Does one get bored and have to start all over? Maybe I just don't understand the concept well enough yet. If you do, please explain.
Let me know what you think.